i start a new job tomorrow.
Ever since i knew i wanted to have children, which was probably when i was old enough to realize what a baby was, i've wanted to be a stay-at-home mom.
Sometimes i was a little ashamed of that desire, especially after graduation(s) when all my friends were seeking jobs or further degrees. I would think, i should get out and WORK, you know, because stay-at-home moms wear pajamas all day and eat chocolate and watch soap operas and never do any sort of work whatsoever. Right?
These past 7 months have been the hardest work of my life. It's like working a 24 hour-a-day, 7 day-a-week job with no holidays or sick days. Well, sometimes there are holidays when J gets off his normal job for a national holiday and then i have a co-worker in this parenting business. But i don't get any time off, per say.
Yet tomorrow starts a new phase in my stay-at-home mom career. It turns out starting a photography business and paying bills and paying for this new person in your family requires money, and you can only live off love for so long. So God sent my way the PERFECT way for me to earn some money and still be around Caroline. A local church has this amazing Mother's Day Out program, and i'm going to get to be a teacher there of toddlers. (Pray for me.) On top of that, there's a spot in the baby room for Caroline and i'll just be right down the hall. And did i mention she gets to go for free since i work there? It is such a blessing!
But here's the thing...i'm going to actually have to hand over my precious little girl tomorrow to two (i'm sure very capable) ladies, give them her diaper bag full of whatever i think she'll need in this 7 hour period all neatly labeled with her name, a print-out of her schedule which i pray she sticks to somewhat so i don't look like a big fat liar, AND WALK AWAY.
i know i'll be right down the hall.
i know i'll be able to nurse her.
i know it's even possible i'll be able to comfort her if she just all-out loses it.
But i still have to WALK AWAY.
So to all you experienced mamas out there, i've got a question.
How do you make the walk away easier for
your child you?